January 2012
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Valentine's Day
The only statuses I’ve been seeing on facebook is of people complaining about being single on Valentine’s Day or not having a valentine which is basically the same thing but whatever. It shouldn’t matter that you don’t have a significant other to spend the day with. Enjoy the single life, who cares?
Can everyone just shut up about it? Valentine’s Day is like 3 weeks...
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That really sad and bittersweet moment when you notice that the people who should’ve been closest to you have all turned their back on you and put you into isolation.
You know what though? Fuck them. Fuck all of them. The only person that has always been there for me is myself. Me, myself, and I. What a surprise. What happens when even I’m not there for myself? I’ll fall apart....
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“Fear is a sickness. It will crawl into the soul of anyone who engages it.”
You're killing me
As hard as I’m trying to deny the fact that you’re not breaking me down slowly, you are. It’s killing me to talk to you. Every single word that you say to me feels like it’s going straight through my heart. I want to fight off the urge to cut ties with you, but I do genuinely care about our friendship. You wouldn’t even be able to fathom the pain that I go through...
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It’s hilarious when girls think they’re so much better than guys. Equal rights? Yeah right, all you girls want is to be treated like a queen. Guys go through the same shit you girls go through. Guys deserve just as much respect as any other girl. It doesn’t matter if you’re a guy or a girl, getting respect doesn’t depend on what gender you are. Respect is to be...
Life is good
Whenever I don’t have anything to complain about, vent about, or even just write about then my life is going good.
That doesn’t mean I’m not going to post anymore though because all good things come to an end eventually.
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You know what sucks? Whenever I need help and ask for it, no one wants to help me out. Not one single person.
This is why I don’t depend on others. All you ever get from depending on others is disappointment. All some people ever do is look out for themselves and their own well-being. It wouldn’t hurt to care about other people, you know?
New Year's Resolutions
Why not?
• Don’t slack off for the remainder of the school year (all A’s preferably)
• Play tennis at least once a week to hone my skills
• Make a very silly boy fall in love with me
• Become class president again and hopefully win the homecoming float competition
• Read more books to further broaden my vocabulary and reading abilities
• Enjoy life and make no regrets
• and...
December 2011
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2011
There’s a taste so bittersweet when I think about the year passing by so quickly. With each year that passes, I know that I’m growing up. Time doesn’t stop for anyone, let alone me. I’ve learned and grown in so many ways this year. I’ve met amazing people, and I’ve lost some friends along the way. I’ve accomplished many things this year, and I’m...
Trust
I don’t fully 100% trust anyone, not even the people closest to me. I’ve been hurt and betrayed too many times to trust anyone. Trust is like a piece of glass, once you break it it’ll never be the same again. My secrets are meant to be kept inside my head. I feel vulnerable whenever I open to people. If they knew my intermost thoughts, what would stop them from using them against...
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Update of my life
• Currently on winter break
• Made 1st cut in tennis try-outs (YEAAAAAAAH!)
• Fell in like with a weird Johnny Depp look-a-like
• Bought the shoes of my dreams
• Social life so far = A++
• I’ve been slacking when it comes to good tumblr posts (that’s for sure)
I need to post more often, I don’t like my blog feeling empty.
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"How badly do you want to see me?"
To the point where it hurts. It’s hard not seeing your face everyday. The distance is so hard to handle. I want to be able to see you whenever I want. It’s not good enough only seeing you every few weeks. Sounding like a selfish brat and saying that I want to see you as soon as possible is a no go. It hurts not to see you, even when I know I could, but it hurts even more when I say...
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Happy Holidays!
I can’t believe it’s almost the end of December. This year has gone by so fast. I hope all you niggas are happy this year and are able to spend time with your family and loved ones.
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I don’t know anything about the future or what’s going to happen. It’s all just one huge maybe.
I don’t know what I’m doing or where I’m going. The world has so much to offer, but yet why am I still so confused? I’m missing something. I feel like a puzzle with one piece missing, never to be completed. When did I lose this piece of myself? Did I even lose...
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Butterflies
Whenever I talk to you, think about you, or see you I get butterflies in my stomach. Your words are like a comforting story, never boring and never unsatisfying. Just thinking about you makes my heart race. You make me feel like I’m on top of the world. Living in reality is finally better than dreaming.
I hope that our puppy love will blossom into something beautiful.
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“You’re pushing yourself too hard. If you keep pushing yourself beyond your...”
– Haru Yoshida (Tonari no Kaibutsu-Kun)
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I feel tired. Like the body that I’m in isn’t my real body. It’s just a shell of what I am physically. I’m drifting around with nowhere to go. No place feels right to me anymore. Not home, not school, none. I’m just going through the everyday motions of life without really feeling or caring about them.
Maybe this is just a phase of my life, but maybe it’s...
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When did I stop caring?
I stopped caring whenever I figured out that no one genuinely cared and because I hated being the person that cared too much, while the other person cared too little. I’m just a one girl show without any help and without an audience. I don’t need petty things like love or friendship. Things like love and friendship are what makes a person vulnerable. I’m fighting this battle...
I hate nosy people the most. Seriously. Get your head out of other people’s business. Don’t ask around to find out things about other people. If you really want to know, then ask the person on your own. Better yet, if they wanted to tell you, they’d tell you. Until then, get the hell out.
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Drinking
I don’t find it attractive to drink, therefore I don’t drink. I plan to never drink for as long as I live. I actually like my liver. The smell is horrid, and there are so many calories. The term “beer belly” wasn’t coined for the fun of it. Drinking to get drunk is not attractive, and it will never be attractive. Is it really worth it to look like an idiot in front of...
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November 2011
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I don't just have one emotion, you know?
I’m not always the happy and smiling person you see everyday. I have hardships too. I’m usually a very passive person when it comes to conveying my feelings to people, but I think it’s time to start being more assertive. Even if you only see me happy, that doesn’t mean that I don’t ever feel lonely, sad, mad, or etc.
Sometimes people just act a certain way because that’s how they want other...
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You never really understand the feeling of loneliness until it actually happens to you. It’s depressing.
I feel like I’m sitting at the bottom of a well. No one actually knows I’m down here. People just go on with their life, not knowing that I could be rotting away at the bottom of a well. Someone could happen to walk past though and see me down here, but no one actually ever...
“No measure of time with you will be long enough, but we’ll start with...”
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Just the very idea of death scares me. You die, then you either go to heaven or hell if they actually exist or you may reincarnate as a cat or something or you just die and that’s it. No afterlife, nothing. Just plain ‘ole death in all of its glory. Even though death is scary, I don’t think I’m scared of dying. I just don’t want to be caught surprised by death. I...
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Before any of you say ignorant things about the internet, tumblr, facebook, etc being censored, maybe you should read up/research about the SOPA / PROTECT IP bill” first.
You’ll get a better understanding of what it actually is.
I can’t depend on anyone. Depending on people is like waiting for a train that will never come, pointless and stupid. Whenever I depend on someone, the outcome is always disappointment. I let people depend on me all the time, yet why can’t people let me depend on them? All I want right now is to be able to depend on someone, anyone!
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I hate it when people make judgments on who they think I am. I can’t save lives. I don’t look like the girl on the cover of maxim. I can’t cook. I’m not always nice. I’ve hated people before. And the list goes on and on. I’m not perfect! Even with all the qualities that I have that aren’t so good, I make up for it with my better qualities.
Take it or...
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